Rain...storm

Yeah, my rain has returned. And with it came some nifty thunder. Sadly most likely causing fires up in the mountains with lightening as well.

Here is hoping not...as I sit and enjoy it at my now cleaned off desk. I am officially ready for those house photos to be taken. We have minor list of like 5 things that can easily be picked off tomorrow evening after work.

The weekend was once again very productive and now the waiting happens. Us being picky and nagging about keeping shit clean while strangers waltz through our house. Hoping to find the right person quickly so we can then stroll through others houses.

This will be the calm prior to the storm for us. The waiting to sell and then the lightening will strike, we will need to find a house quickly, get it inspected fill out tons of paperwork and then pack, pack, pack. Set up the moving date, van and all the crap that follows. Hence we are in the eye of the storm.

Now on that note I will go enjoy the rain while it lasts as it looks like sun is on the horizon again tomorrow.

Peace, Health and Happiness.

Good News

Vet called early this afternoon and let me know his suspicions were way off. Hippycat2 has bad (no) teeth and a nasty respiratory infection which antibiotics should clear up.

Hence she is old and needs soft food forever, but she will survive a while longer...very happy. She is already feeling better got down a whole can of food (throughout the day). And as usual looking for more love.

Work was way to busy. I look forward to my co-workers return on Thursday.

Came home totally not wanting to do anything, but Tamara was good and got me moving a bit. Accomplished a few things off of the list. Probably need to do a few more each night, but hey, some better than none.

Need to get out and do some serious weeding, perhaps if these evening continue to be nice I can get a few hours in as well.

Motivation and energy...find me soon please!

Peace, Health and Happiness!

So much, yet so little...

This is how I am feeling about what has been accomplished by me in getting the house ready to go (for sale that is).

The list to complete seems daunting, but I do think doable in 8 days.

We went and looked at one house today. I was trying to once again get a feel from what the web presents and what reality holds true. I am comfortable with it once again. The house by no means was perfect, but yet it was doable in many ways.

Of course when things run wild at home that means that same must be going on at work. In reality things are actually fairly tame for my job, I thin the problem is that I am also doing my co-workers job as he is out on emergency leave. Hence leaving work to be a bit crazy as well. But hey, that job makes home possible and hearing, reading and knowing those who are unemployed I would not trade with them for the world.

On the animal front one of our loved outdoor kitties (Hippy2) is not doing well. Blood work and money gone by with results to be returned tomorrow. I was prepared for not good news from the vet this morning as his "intuition" leads him to believe we may need to make decisions on what is right. Sad.

So there you have it. Live moves forward and tonight with sadness thrown in.

Peace, Health and Happiness.

Thinned

No not me...I wish, but hey next best thing, the house is thinned. Any more packing now is icing on the cake. Each box is one less down the road. Hence, I plan on filling a few more as we go along.

I like the idea of having less to pack in the future. Since obviously half this stuff is not even being used packing it away for a few months should be nothing. Now finding a space for all this packed away boxes may become more of a tricky process.

Shall I trust and put it over at the other house, but I keep thinking what if he moves sooner than us? Shit, I would have to move all these boxes again, hence I will be taking a look at the shed and trying to start there. Packing that away as well and making it a bit more storage friendly seems like a good idea.

The week ahead seems to be filled and work will be absolutely no exception. However it seems there will be a break on the home front the following week and yet work will continue to be crazy. July shall be an interesting month for sure.

Here is hoping it goes as I want... :-)

Peace, Health and Happiness.

Strange

Odd how life changes and yet not really. Busy weekend for our gang. One of the events was actually a Solstice Party from a friend way back. High school is such an odd place and I definitely was and odd duck, hence seeing some of the folks from that time is very strange for me.

Recently met up with a friend from the past and got invited to her party. Which was very fun, but odd non the less. Somehow mixing old with new highlighted how far I have moved along as have many of the people I saw. One gal who I can say I had no reaction to other than "hey" seemed almost identical to her past. Friendly, yet removed slightly from it all other than the immediate folks around her. Which now are her kids and family. That's cool.

One was as uptight now as she was in school. I was not fond of her then and I can say her blue eye shadow did not really intrigue me this time around either. Oddly enough she is doing what she was meant to. She is an artist and from the looks of her gallery posting she is good at it. Not that I would have doubts as in school she seemed to succeed in what ever she set out for. Splendid.

The host continues to be some type of middle ground. I liked her than and there is absolutely no reason to not enjoy her now. Her kids seemed friendly as did her husband. She has a beautiful house with an interesting life surrounding it. We all have our share of work either to be done or a path we cleared ourselves. I believe her path has already seen a lot of work and her life is moving in a splendid direction. It was fun seeing her with her friends and family, they are most likely who they have set out to be.

Lastly I saw someone whom I was close to many years ago. She had two of her three kids with her, both seemed like shinning images of her former self in different ways from one another. It was grand seeing her and yet, so sad. She obviously has seen more than she ever wanted to and yet she has more to go. I feel she still holds this spark of fun that she always had and yet it is dulled by time and place.

Standing and chatting with her about how and where I was seemed so odd and yet inspiring that just across the driveway my family lurked about. I realized once again what it means to be so damn lucky and how each one of these individuals brings something great into my life. I was pleased of exactly where I am, knowing how far I have come to get here and how content it feels to be me.

Life holds non stop challenges and yet I know I wouldn't want to be anywhere else than my current place on the road.

Truth is out there keep searching.

Peace, Health and Happiness.

Change

A never ending process. I am suppose to be upset about Proposition 8 in California and oddly enough, I am not. Reality is that our country is not equal and it will take more years, money and work to change it to be a little more equal.

For me gay marriage is important from the equality point of view. I do not believe my government should in any way giving tax breaks for something conservatives are using as a religious tool, marriage. Hence they either are separated or not. Hence for me it is a matter of fairness. If you want to hold your bible or whatever up and claim some superiority over marriage than under no circumstances should the government recognize it. You cannot have it both ways in my mind.

Sadly California has much more serious problems than gay marriage. As does the rest of our country. Yes there is always a fight for equality, but there always has been as well. Yes I should be more active and upset, but somehow I believe I am on the side of Truth and that in and of itself will eventually win out. Perhaps that is my religion.

I guess I look at this from long term standpoint. We have come a long way and yes we have a long way to go, but hell look at where we are at? Fairness is just around the corner. But remember in our country there is still over 20% of the people that believe Iraq had WMD. What more is there to say?

Peace, Happiness and Health.

Another long work week ahead

5 days until more time off. Kinda sad I go through time searching for weekends. In all reality my job is not that bad. Stressful and busy yes and more so in the last year, but I am still on of the lucky ones. Hence why is it so damn hard to get up in the morning and get motivated to be there?

I think some of it is that it has become a chore and no longer enjoyable. That is disappointing. I am just another one of those pain in the ass whiners that goes through the motions but takes no action to change it. Yet my job affords me the things in life I enjoy. Time with my daughter and life, funds enough to get by. Is that not enough to find peace in this place?

One wonders if I have my sites set a tad high. Perhaps looking from the perspective of what this job affords me should be enough? Maybe it is time to change the tune and stop thinking of the days when I truly did not mind it so much? Those were the times when I had little say or ability to make decisions. Oddly enough I have a much higher level or control over my job now than ever before. Is that the reason it is no longer fun? Is it the more responsibility I have gained the less enjoyment I have? This could be my own shortcomings complete.

Food for thought and time to rethink as I do not want to spend 40plus hours a week being less than helpful to myself and those around me. My attitude my find a path of change and quickly. It could only improve for my co-workers, my family and myself.

Reflection time.

Peace, Health and Happiness.

Long Week

Finally coming to an end. Here is hoping the weekend can be somewhat uneventful.

Maybe a bit of yard work and relaxation. Sunday go see Star Trek and more being a slug.

Work is a bit more than a bit hectic and crazy and oddly enough home is feeling a bit more in different ways. I am one who enjoys slowing it down and I am hoping this weekend can provide a bit of that for me.

Peace, Health and Happiness on the path of Truth.

Rain Continues

Seems fitting this week. Amongst spring growth the rain continues. The garden may be happy. Live evolves and continues to change. Everyday brings step closer to the next unknown.

One has thought process, but learning to keep open options is the priority. Stress comes in odd ways. Work continues to be lackluster and yet challenges me daily. Life is filled with color and it also continues to challenge me daily.

I think growth has taught me look behind the curtain. While working through plan A and hoping for the best, have the outline for plan B waiting. Life is a path we follow and yet we are constantly pushed off it by events outside our own bubble.

Peace, Health and Happiness, hopefully brings us closer to Truth.

May Rain

Woke up to the sound of it this morning. Been a while since I heard it come down this hard. I listened for a while prior to arising. The cats finally encouraged me to get out of bed.

I do love the rain, but oddly enough raining this hard with the inclusion of heavy wind seems oddly out of place. At least for the month of May. But then again May is a kitchen sink month. Anything can happen and roll with it is best. Last May we had some heat waves, so why not have some odd storms this year. Balance or not.

Does life run in this pattern as well? One never knows. Lately been feeling almost calm. Expecting that next storm to arrive shortly.

Spring even with the rain seems to really set in. We planted the garden up and am hoping for a few fresh veggies this summer, maybe even a pumpkin or two. We'll see what arrives.

Work continues I think well, but I am not sure if that is realistic either. I almost hating settling in expecting the next shuffle/re-structure to come along at any minute. Busy we are, but just as replaceable I know.

All the usual stresses are in place and yet they seem more calm the usual. I think I credit having someone else here with me knowing support emotionally is on hand. Oddly enough I never truly realized how important that physical presence is or was, but I do now. It has made the world of difference. Relationships are hard enough, but hell distance sure as hell makes them harder.

Not sure I have a creative bone in me this days. I know my spring energy seems to be for cleaning, organizing and get outside. Makes me not want to think about anything to do with a computer unless it is to veg out playing a game. Perhaps some day words will return. Until then...

Peace, Health and Happiness.