Friendship

In general we are in a place that we choose. This does not mean we want to be here, but that the choices we took whether right or wrong brought us here.

I am learning to make the tougher choices, because in the end the pain created from these decisions are worth the end result. You want to change, well you are the only one that can do it. You want different reactions from others than you need to look into getting them.

Believing in friendship and love will prove us right. People help us through these decisions in life we may not get reaction we expect and there may be huge suprises from people you may have thought understood, but in the end the true friendships and love will come through. Sometimes the ones you thought were there are not and then others will completely suprise us.

I have a friend who called me on a phone last night at an inappropriate hour for my family (well phone in general sucks, but oh well).

She tells me I am not supporting her enough...

I said support for our lives must come from oneself first. We as adults need to be honest with ourselves and look truly at things the best we can.

She got mad told me I am selfish and do not support her. I asked what did she need support on? Was told money, place to live and to help her look for a job.

I am at a loss when this exact support was asked of me about 2 years ago and all 3 items were given.

I mentioned that it may be time to look within as to why a circle seems to have been created over the last 16 years of our friendship...she hung up.

I made a decision, good or bad it is done. I may have lost a friend, but in my life I also need to have respect for those around me and the decisions they make...I can support but at some point you must support yourself. I am saddend.

Later...