Reality.
Sometimes feels nowhere nowhere near as good as you would hope. Life moves along and brings new challenges you may never have considered. The evaluation of that takes time. Odd when you feel it happening and want it to stop but it doesn’t and you are told it will only get worse with no explanation as to why.
Each skill we have as a human is important. We hardly realize them until they start to fade. Don't take your body or mind for granted. Each can fail in such odd ways.
On other fronts yesterday many observations and thoughts were finalized.
One needs to take their gut feelings about others seriously. When we for years have stymied a friendship for whatever reason more than likely our gut is right. We did not allow the person into our heart for a reason even if we cannot pin point it, someday it will hit you upside the head. They may prove to be a worst fear come alive. There ability for cruelty may have shown through to some feeling early on, even one we cannot pinpoint. Eventually the colors come shining through. Feel good about your reserved ness all this time. When they finally hit the sting is apparent but not bone crushing. Sad and disappointed that it happened but in some sense relief that the damage is not more.
Also one realized that what one had been wishing for has finally been realized. Now the fallout of that wish is all around. What the future holds is totally unknown. New and big challenges lie ahead. And the pieces that fell off lie at ones feet. The sadness of that reality weighs more heavily within my mind than I had ever thought. People have been hurt even when they have created their own path down a very long clear road. One still feels there shock and pain. Sadly I also see that they will never truly learn from the action or actions. Their acceptance of the reality is very wide and different from my own.
So today is filled with sadness and light. Perhaps tomorrow can be a bit smoother. Rocks are beautiful things and yet hurtful when we are hit by them when they fall.
Peace.
Each skill we have as a human is important. We hardly realize them until they start to fade. Don't take your body or mind for granted. Each can fail in such odd ways.
On other fronts yesterday many observations and thoughts were finalized.
One needs to take their gut feelings about others seriously. When we for years have stymied a friendship for whatever reason more than likely our gut is right. We did not allow the person into our heart for a reason even if we cannot pin point it, someday it will hit you upside the head. They may prove to be a worst fear come alive. There ability for cruelty may have shown through to some feeling early on, even one we cannot pinpoint. Eventually the colors come shining through. Feel good about your reserved ness all this time. When they finally hit the sting is apparent but not bone crushing. Sad and disappointed that it happened but in some sense relief that the damage is not more.
Also one realized that what one had been wishing for has finally been realized. Now the fallout of that wish is all around. What the future holds is totally unknown. New and big challenges lie ahead. And the pieces that fell off lie at ones feet. The sadness of that reality weighs more heavily within my mind than I had ever thought. People have been hurt even when they have created their own path down a very long clear road. One still feels there shock and pain. Sadly I also see that they will never truly learn from the action or actions. Their acceptance of the reality is very wide and different from my own.
So today is filled with sadness and light. Perhaps tomorrow can be a bit smoother. Rocks are beautiful things and yet hurtful when we are hit by them when they fall.
Peace.
posted by E at 5:44 AM
1 Comments:
A very wise woman once told me the issues of others are not my problem. I know it's hard not to empathize but make sure it doesn't swallow you. Accepting responsibility for your own actions is hard but it's something all of us must do at some point in our lives. Those of us who don't, are doomed to make the same mistakes until the day we die. Sad but many people fall into this trap and there's nothing you can do to make them see it.
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