Usually Friday makes me smile with great anticipation of escaping the hell of work, but today not really. Which only clarifies my dislike of a co-worker. How can one person make your life hell for a place you spend to much time at as it is?

I don't know, but I need to find that ability to ignore and not care. Something I have a tough time accomplishing. My sense of what is to be defined needs to be adjusted in so many ways. I wish sometimes we could throw out all the baggage and kick it as far as possible. Unfortunately I am stuck with me and all the shit I bring along with me.

So now I really need to figure out how to let some of it go. Adjust my critical nature. Adjust my scale on what affects me and what does not. Learn how to let it go and be okay with that where it does not eat me up inside. Damn, thats a lot for me.

I want to give up and in reality that is not even possible for me. I wish it were.

Peace.