Middle of the week...

The mundane continues. Middle...seems fitting lately. Not many ups or downs...muddling in the middle. The beige covers all. Made it through a team communication experience yesterday. For me to remember that much cringing it must have been bad.

Overlying clouds with the sun trying to peak through into the morning. Another day of basic. Let the rain season come full force soon.

Dulled...the feeling of nothing. Blank when so much is around me. I hate that. Not being able to think clearly or focused seems lame. Only makes me crave the opposite.

I want the sharpness back. Living in the beige does not feel like living when I take the time to reflect on it. Most of the time it allows one to just not care. That does not seem good or at least not for me. Think and feel. Somehow that is clouded and fuzzy.

People feel like they are slipping away once again and I seem to just watch it happen with no method to stop the escape. Wish that didn't happen so often. One must truly figure out what lies within that precipitates that.

Off to daze through another day of work. Peace.